It was hopeless. My life just wasn't worth living. Many times I had been so desperate that I had even considered taking my own life. Fortunately, I have never been the type of person who has liked any sort of pain. I couldn't think of a way to finish myself off. I was confused. I couldn't find any reason for my being here. I wanted to give up and end all the pain and suffering I was experiencing, but something kept saying to me, "Not yet, wait a while, something will happen, eventually."

I kept hopelessly looking for an answer. I couldn't find one. Everywhere I looked I saw hatred and cruelty. On television, newspapers, magazines, books, and worst of all, in the world around me.

Sometimes when I was upset, I would go out for a walk. I could be by myself,away from my troubles at home and at school. During these walks alone, I would think, wonder and often cry. Sometimes it really felt as though someone was out there, waiting for me, loving me. The possibility of God had crossed my mind. It always seemed too far from reality.

One night, when I was at the height of my depression, I went on one of these walks. I found a place where I could rest. I sat down and started to think. I looked at the beauty of the stars, as I often did, and let my heart cry out for an answer. A little while later, I got up and started walking again. I looked at the stars again. This time, I noticed an unusually bright one. Remembering the story I had once heard of the wise men who followed a star to Jesus' birth place, I decided to walk in the direction of that star. I, by this time, was very desperate for an answer.


I walked for ages. After a while, I stopped and turned around, ready to head for home. As I turned and faced the building now in front of me, my heart almost stopped. At that very moment, my eyes were opened to Jesus Christ. There in front of my eyes was a cross. I had heard the story of Jesus' death but before that very moment I had never really believed it. I realised at last that God was there, waiting for me, loving me.


I know that being a Christian won't solve all my problems. I have to work at them by praying and reading the Bible. It's good to know that I have got the strength to resist the temptations put to me by the devil. I also know that I have eternal life.